everything is disgusting everything is awful everything feels like a nightmare when am i going to wake up i hate my life i hate everyone around me i wish i were never born i wish i could not exist into this hellish world of madness why is this happening? why is my imagination so livid that it hurts and disgusts me to the point of vomiting yet feeling completely empty yet full of pain afterwards? why cant i shut up the noises in my head? they arent voices, theyre just annoying noise, like cheap r